I don't even know where to begin again after the amazing response
to my last post.
"Thank You" obviously comes to mind, and yet feels woefully inadequate after such an outpouring of support, identification, sage advice, encouragement, love, and listening.
It feels so good to know that so many of you resonate with the same struggles and imperfections and contradictions that I described. It feels so validating to know that none of us are alone in the parenting battles we fight, the guilt we feel, or the insecurities we navigate.
A few observations I've come away with:
There is a generation of children being raised on instant cheese goo!
Everyone with small kiddos spends much of the day dealing with poop!
Many blogs and much of Pinterest make us feel inferior and defeated!
We all crave inspiration and connection!
There are not enough hours in the day!
The days go by SO. FREAKING. SLOWLY.
We adore our kids.
They drive us crazy!
I am very touched by the kindness, generosity, honesty, and humanity that came pouring out in the comments (and emails, and texts, and on other blog posts and on facebook!)
Your words affirmed that I am not ready to leave this space -- not yet.
They also affirmed what I have been knowing for a while now:
That this blog needs to evolve if it is to lift me and others up rather than bring us down. The last thing I want to do is contribute to the Stepford Wife-ification of the world by projecting or promoting
an image of perfection.
So from here on out...
I'm taking the (self-imposed) pressure off myself to post at a certain rate,
or on certain topics.
I am owning that I am a feminist and a mother,
a writer and a housekeeper.
I will continue to figure out how those identities can work in chorus.
I am moving forward with a fresh intention to celebrate
but not idealize parenthood.
I'm opening myself up to opening up more.
Whatever that means...I guess we will find out ;)
In any case, it will all be from my heart.
Hugs,
Leigh